antisocial restless races 

lowly naked dazzled faces 

cover up the truth with hate 

and run towards fate 

participate!

time for ego, id and you 

following the God that's new 

for truth is simply facts on sheets 

it's me that bleeds! it's me that bleeds!

Battle of the Sluts

Female Doll
Put up your guard
Go ahead,
Spread em apart

I will let you fool my mind
If you leave all your brains behind

So if you want attention
And I want affection
And I fear rejection
And you fear my erection

Then why don't we mix up
Our fears and desires
And turn out tomorrow
As constructive liars?
______________________

Oh my cunt
You precious beast
Self righteousness
Is your disease

I will take them down and meanwhile
Leave their penises in exile

So if my pussy is wanted
And my body is flaunted
I'll get all the fame
And my face in their frame

So why don't we act like
We're horny as fuck
And bite off their cocks
With a smile as we suck

_______________________

Male and Female
Adam and Eve
You both make me
Dry heave

Take your genitalia
And stick em somewhere far away
Cause all that fucks
Is getting old
And I will not watch your
Parts decay

Go tell your mom and dad
You love them
Hug your confused teenage child
And calm down, breathe
And turn to normalThink, before your mind turns wild. 

One Deadly Sin

Cold dreams are always there for them like father and mother
Ignorance forsaking confused minds, like no other
He smiled once, when the day was warm and bright
All the way through the progress into the night
Then he forgot about that smile and focused on fear
He had to learn to deny anything he held dear
Only hate gave him dreams, only dreams gave him life
And he fed himself lies until no help arrived
Ignorance creates another monster in the ice age of heart
Sucking the energy from soul, digesting it part by part
And he forgot about reason
Inches taller by night
And he never once questioned
If his tactics were right
Biblical theories backing up his disease
Until a nation of aborted babies stood at ease
Holding his thoughts in their hands, following every move
There was no reason to fear him,
And no need to prove
Like when father was angry cause of wasted potential
And his anger would make every feeling dismantle
Never good enough, ready to sell their soul to the beast
Just for an ounce of acceptance
Or a game boy at least
And there they were, standing tall, like he had predicted
Manifestos written and statues erected
And a black cloud of evil, covered the sky
And, they felt grand and proud, finally learning to fly
And the death covered eyes of the monster now giant
Hiding fear behind hands, like children, so defiant
And in less than a second, death had covered the land
Putting weapons of guilt into every child's hand
And then he raises his arms at the resistance before him
And orders the slaves to reject and ignore them
Now the world is tainted, history was ignited
His evil birthed children until worlds were divided
And all we can do now is hope for a hell.
For the evil of mind to be locked up in a cell.
Where Mommy and Daddy point their finger day and night
And nothing can make your actions turn right
But there isn't a certainty in the sky up above
So my plead to you now...please remember you're loved.

Racist Melodies

One million different words
to name each other stupid
One million different ways
to give each other pain
Papa tells her not to judge
Unless her heart speaks Cupid
Mama sings him songs of fairness
Just this one scar must remain

Colors clothing childish anger
Definitions made without a clue
Times will come around again
To question all it's meaning
Fear of the exotic, making
Anger, jealousy come true
Coping with a fascist contract
leads to less developed dreaming

Taboo clichés paint the living
Black and White like all their minds
Fighting through the fog of language
Should be mentioned when he rewinds

Comfortability lacking
Hatred comin' out of Bobbies ears
When segregation ended
Is when he developed manic fears

And Lilli, she could swear
all Whitey does is drink, rape and lie
Not knowing if it's all for sure
Is what then later makes her cry

Next time you dabble in your mind
Please ask yourself one simple thing
If you were helpless and ignored
would you refuse to grab a string
If offered by the man you hate
For reasons made by Babylon?
If you say yes, then truth is hell
has shaped you and already won.

I pray for us to learn to see
past the childish way we feel
And to realize above all else
that this reality ain't real.

Release

Can't sleep tonight,
While you're lying next to me
in peace I wish for chaos

My mind explodes to

Torn fishnets and panties flying in circles on ceiling fans

I want my legs wrapped around your neck
Suffocating you with

passion's unpredictability

Hotel rooms
Love dice
Steaming bath tubs
And empty Champagne bottles
To celebrate our
Lovin'
Livin'
Combinations

Painted
Carved in stone
Our bodies fading
Into each other

Legs covering legs
And details unraveling
And disappearing

Broken chairs
And
Broken egos

Living out all the feelings
Of daily thoughts
Regarding each other

Your lips kissing the inside of my thigh
I giggle as the tickle moves
Upward
Like a scavenger hunt

You seek
Slowly
The spot to top off
All the others

That moment
When the nerves spam
And the brainwaves collide
I feel only you.

Your sweet lips
Your sweet love.

And it lasts for ever
Yet it is too short

And I desire more.

More feeling

Biology and spirituality
Combined
I am a slave to hormones released

I want your chaos
I want your rhythm
Your changeable,
Always redefining
Rhythm

Inside of me

To do as pleased
For both of us
To be released

From our prisons of tragedy

For this one day.

Silent wish for attendance of soul
As worlds are crumbling
I forgot my name
Because of words and looks
Turned to igniting grounds
I walk on
And when the night comes creeping
I turn off the lights, look in the mirror
And like myself.

Hoped to be erased by
Borderline dysfunctions
But Daddy always came back
Just to stand in silence

Always in between

And, Love, oh sweet angel
Distracting my progress
With apples and wine

A small child
With Life's Ouzi
Pullin' Drive By's
To erase Psychology

Afraid to exist
Afraid to belong
Afraid to select a tune
When the time comes

Dreaming, still
Dreams of Rock Bottom
Dreams of drunken nights on concrete.
With possibilities
Of never waking up.

Life, this treasure, you are too good for me
As everything.

And judged only
By a monster
Creeped into this world with force
Named Society.

Standards
Sticking cigarettes in my eyes
Like, only one thing left
You cannot finish.

And reason
Is my enemy!

So I ask
For one day
For my own consciousness
To give me strength
To be myself
To admit to loving myself.
To reject, as I am.

To give me life
As I exists
And as I know.

For this day belongs to me.
And if it doesn't, then I want to believe a lie.

Please give me back that little black tumorous growth of happiness, that I once owned, in the back of my mind.
Just for one day.

Silent Rising Roses

When the door came shut
They, daydreaming,
both shut down
For one moment
To reboot as
One and the same
In the next.

For a look
He had passed through
A level of
Unconscious understanding
Her precious angst
Enslaving
His mind
Through the awkward
Fear of Exotics
They shared a
Terrifying truth
Just for that look.

To kiss he dreamt
And Disgusted
He faded back into himself
Of ignorance
Ridden
And misunderstood

She, being his faded
Compliment
Of human accomplishment
Of blind realization

Felt the same angst
Creeping through his
Left alone
And tortured soul

His beautiful
Crying, blue eyes
Lit up behind all the abuse
She is enslaved by his
Redemption

His confessions
Hers
Glowing
In the back of timeless
Merged existence

Tantalizing
The complete meaning
Of their made up minds

To leave
Embarrassed
Woken souls
Unidentified
Yet to be stamped
Into a new category
Of this one lifetime
They share

But one moment
Of true existing
One moment
Of true resisting
Your so selfishly
Created safe zone
Changed the width of it
By measurable amount

As if the sound of silence
Creeping
Came through dimensions
Unknown
To wake up
Beauty
From it's hatred filled demise

Now love has won
And more to come
They are
A bird, evolved
In speeds
Unimaginable
And beautiful
To witness it's wings

In ignorance it started then
unimaginably real to see
It was hate then, once
Until silent love it came to be. 

Sunday.

Sunday.

Subtle tones of humidity in the air.
Neck tension catching on fire.
The window's telling stories.
The rain's playing hide and seek with the sun.

And everything stinks like false priorities.

To the majority at least.

Everybody's one last excuse before being buried alive.

The guilty following the carnival
To the big black house of redemption.

As the rest of us reduce our
Spirituality to Video Games and TV

In search of the same fulfillment.

Sunday.

The knives still stuck in all our backs.
We follow blindly.

One day to remember
What we do not have.
What we can't achieve.

Recruiting others.

Only the children,
In their abandonment,
Have left the masses
To honor the universe
And it's secrets.

So when we fiction
Our way to next Sunday
We might leave a friction
Up to fate. 

Capable of Beauty

As the church bell is ringing 
I picture us married
Me,
Wearing the dress I always wanted to pick flowers in when I was a girl. 

As the church bell is ringing
Every single ring becomes a second leaning closer 
Towards the moment I can see you again. 

As the church bell is ringing 
I am crying, hoping I will never chase your heart away 

Dream your dreams away 
Cope your mind away 
Leave you unfinished 

To dress myself. 

I want to hold your hand 
In good and bad 
And always lend you 
Me 
To lean on 
To dive into 
To digest 
To replay 
To remember

To leave you 
Every morning 
With the knowledge, that 
Once you love 
Like I do now 
You cannot ever 
Love again.